Farewell

This is the end...

My mind will find its ways

Through the bridge of many thoughts

To realize that this is the end.

Why?

why?

why?

I screamed loudly

Hope it was enough

But it is not!

The hate become deeper

It crawled between my heart

Throbs quickly and crazier

This is the end...

It is time to say farewell

I hate my life I lived

I refused to believe in you anymore

The Day For You

Today... is a new day

It is a day for you

to step forward as a mature girl

you become a woman

maybe not as a mature woman

but you are not a kid anymore

Today... is a starting day

you start it with a vow

that you have Jesus in your heart

to be your savior

to be with you all days

to help you in your hardest day

to calm your heart when you upset

to mend your broken heart

and to makes your days happier

Today... is your salvation day

God bless you my dearest one

keep Jesus in your heart

keep prayer

and pray

The Last

It is the last night

you are as a big girl

It is the last night

you are being a big girl

tomorrow morning

everything change

you will by your own

you become more wise

more mature

All I wanna say is

Just think twice or more

if you want to do something

or want to say something

because now you should take all

the risk and responsible

Go forward girl

Don't be afraid

God always be with you

It is A Time For You

I am counting my thoughts

Its almost time for you

To stand by your own feet

I am counting my fears

You will be by yourself from now on

To face the world that you are living for

I am counting my tears

Hoping that you will be okay

For I know you are a brave and smart girl

I am counting my happiness

Knowing that you are not a teen anymore

You can reach what you are dreaming for

I am counting my days

Being with you were the happiest times

My prayers always for you forever

I am counting my times

Its comes to you and me

Be blessed my dear

If My Time Has Come

if my time has come
please don't cry

if my time has come
please be happy

because I go to a better place
because I feel no pain

if my time has come
you know I am with my saviour

I Miss You

 

Tonight, 

I'm alone

Looking outside my window

Empty street below

Up the empty sky

No stars 

No moon

It's just dark clouds

I know what in my mind

I know what I'm thinking

Its only you

the one that I will never meet again

I miss you...

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Amiko

09/1012

to my dear friend who just passed away a week ago.

Who am I?

Sometimes I forgot 

who am I

I tried to run fast to reached you

And I failed

I tried to flied to your heart

and I fell down

Sometimes I forgot 

who am I

I am Still Here

I just have to wait 

and wait.... 

and wait....

until it finished!

amiko

April 12, 2011

Give Me A Chance

I NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE

NOW I AM MISSING YOU MORE

WHY YOU LEAVE ME MOURN

AS MY TEARS KEEPING RUN DOWN

WHY YOUR PRIDE MAKE YOU HIDE

WHY YOU TURN AWAY OF ME

I REALLY NEED YOU IN MY LIFE

ARE YOU THAT AFRAID OF ME

HOW CAN YOU WALK AWAY

LEAVING ME IN DESPAIR 

WHAT SHOULD I DO

TO TAKE YOU BACK TO MY SIDE

CAN WE START IT ALL OVER AGAIN

I KNOW THAT YOU STILL LOVE ME

GIVE ME CHANCE TO SHOW YOU

THAT I STILL LOVE YOU TOO

 THIS IS FOR YOU ~ I AM SO SORRY

amiko

180609

You Will Understand

Child,

Is it right to judge you?

being alone in that big house

playing around

staying in someone house 

till late...

It's not right to feel this pain

the burden 

the sorrow

that anguish

of being alone...

But... 

is it too late to fix it right?

what has done

done

let it be...

Child,

fight for your future

you still young

your way still long

don't give up...

I can't say

there will be no hitch

but at least

keep on fighting

keep on learning

Yes,

you will fall down

you will feel of giving up

about the hardest life

the wrong way you've chosed

But...

believe in yourself

you can do the right thing

you can choose the right way

forgive yourself

depend not on yourself but God

This way you can move on

don't blame your surronding

don't search who's wrong

just flow like waters in rivers

keep on

keep on fighting

someday you will understand

Amiko

02/13/11

Give Up?

When this night passes

Will I be survived?

When tonight goes dawn

Can I pull myself together?

Life makes fun of me

Cruel and torn me apart

Destiny reach for agony

Makes me breathless

When tonight passes

I know I am hopeless

When morning come

I want to be erased

Idiot! Idiot! Idiot!

I scream to morning dew

Fool! Fool! Bloody fool!

I've been merely screw up

It's misunderstanding

But who cares?

It's miscalculation

But who's counting?

Hopeless...

I know it's hopeless

Ridiculous....

Idiots!

Always Be With You

I always felt uneasy

I know I need to be strong

Many things makes me confused

But I must choose to be patient

When I was careless

When I fell down

I stopped and knelt

I was too tired

I wanted to pray

But what should I say

I didn't understand

The tears fell unbearable

God

Is this the way that I should take?

I don't know if I can survive

Without the help of You?

Here I am...

Take my hand

Guided my path

I want to be with You

Kata Hati

Lebih dari yang kuharapkan

Pada akhirnya hanya tinggal harapan
Semakin hari semakin jauh
Tenggelam dalam keluh
Saat semua daya sudah terhempas
Semua asa telah terkuras
Semua harapan terlepas
Akankah aku pergi bebas?

Lonely

Without words I learn everything I could

Without sounds I live in bustling world

I felt it so dark, let it be shaded

I felt so quiet, let it be silent

I think this way is better than nothing

In my half world I can listen to everything

From my clumsy world I try to speak up

I can do that...

Can I?

Bingung

Bingung.... 

Bingung....

Aku benar benar bingung!

Aku harus bagaimana?

Sudah tidak ada apa apa

Apa aku harus menanggung semua ini

Sendiri....

Sendiri... seperti biasa ... sendiri!

Don't say it!

Something stupid that you ever said 

will still remain in her head

And it will stay there weeks....months....years

She doesn't want to hear that again

don't say something like that again

you don't know how it's hurt her alot 

Because she has no ideas

how to erase it from her head

she never knew it got deep impact

to her attitude, her behavior and her character

What's Going On

What's going on?

Something has happened

And she tried to find an answer

What's going on?

Why always something like this happens in her life?

She tried hard searching for an answer

What's going to happen?

She confused

She got no answer

The Dead End

From here she can see an edge, very narrow

She is thinking...

Will she goes back from the start and starting all over again?

or

will she jumps to the edge and falling apart?

and

she is still thinking...

Pain In Her Heart

Pain in her heart she felt this afternoon

It likes a knife stabbed her heart 

and cut it into pieces

It was not her willing to heard bad words

But she realized she was all wrong

But she could not turn the time back 

to her honest life

Flashed of memories dance in her mind

Asking her to remember every pains 

from the past

Makes her crawled on the floor

Crying, screaming as if wanted the pain 

to leave her mind.

she murmuring to the air, 

"....If good attention that you asked,

I will give it to you 

for sure!...."

 

who is she?

As a woman she still on her big doubts

still searching for the right path

and wondering where this life will lead her

But one thing she knows about

she must keep go on

for the sake of her pride and heart

Although she also known that her long journey will end

she wants to keep fight and always braves with patient

until the day she has called

Who is she?