I am Still Here

I just have to wait 

and wait.... 

and wait....

until it finished!

amiko

April 12, 2011

Give Me A Chance

I NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE

NOW I AM MISSING YOU MORE

WHY YOU LEAVE ME MOURN

AS MY TEARS KEEPING RUN DOWN

WHY YOUR PRIDE MAKE YOU HIDE

WHY YOU TURN AWAY OF ME

I REALLY NEED YOU IN MY LIFE

ARE YOU THAT AFRAID OF ME

HOW CAN YOU WALK AWAY

LEAVING ME IN DESPAIR 

WHAT SHOULD I DO

TO TAKE YOU BACK TO MY SIDE

CAN WE START IT ALL OVER AGAIN

I KNOW THAT YOU STILL LOVE ME

GIVE ME CHANCE TO SHOW YOU

THAT I STILL LOVE YOU TOO

 THIS IS FOR YOU ~ I AM SO SORRY

amiko

180609

You Will Understand

Child,

Is it right to judge you?

being alone in that big house

playing around

staying in someone house 

till late...

It's not right to feel this pain

the burden 

the sorrow

that anguish

of being alone...

But... 

is it too late to fix it right?

what has done

done

let it be...

Child,

fight for your future

you still young

your way still long

don't give up...

I can't say

there will be no hitch

but at least

keep on fighting

keep on learning

Yes,

you will fall down

you will feel of giving up

about the hardest life

the wrong way you've chosed

But...

believe in yourself

you can do the right thing

you can choose the right way

forgive yourself

depend not on yourself but God

This way you can move on

don't blame your surronding

don't search who's wrong

just flow like waters in rivers

keep on

keep on fighting

someday you will understand

Amiko

02/13/11

Give Up?

When this night passes

Will I be survived?

When tonight goes dawn

Can I pull myself together?

Life makes fun of me

Cruel and torn me apart

Destiny reach for agony

Makes me breathless

When tonight passes

I know I am hopeless

When morning come

I want to be erased

Idiot! Idiot! Idiot!

I scream to morning dew

Fool! Fool! Bloody fool!

I've been merely screw up

It's misunderstanding

But who cares?

It's miscalculation

But who's counting?

Hopeless...

I know it's hopeless

Ridiculous....

Idiots!

Always Be With You

I always felt uneasy

I know I need to be strong

Many things makes me confused

But I must choose to be patient

When I was careless

When I fell down

I stopped and knelt

I was too tired

I wanted to pray

But what should I say

I didn't understand

The tears fell unbearable

God

Is this the way that I should take?

I don't know if I can survive

Without the help of You?

Here I am...

Take my hand

Guided my path

I want to be with You

Kata Hati

Lebih dari yang kuharapkan

Pada akhirnya hanya tinggal harapan
Semakin hari semakin jauh
Tenggelam dalam keluh
Saat semua daya sudah terhempas
Semua asa telah terkuras
Semua harapan terlepas
Akankah aku pergi bebas?

Lonely

Without words I learn everything I could

Without sounds I live in bustling world

I felt it so dark, let it be shaded

I felt so quiet, let it be silent

I think this way is better than nothing

In my half world I can listen to everything

From my clumsy world I try to speak up

I can do that...

Can I?

Bingung

Bingung.... 

Bingung....

Aku benar benar bingung!

Aku harus bagaimana?

Sudah tidak ada apa apa

Apa aku harus menanggung semua ini

Sendiri....

Sendiri... seperti biasa ... sendiri!

Don't say it!

Something stupid that you ever said 

will still remain in her head

And it will stay there weeks....months....years

She doesn't want to hear that again

don't say something like that again

you don't know how it's hurt her alot 

Because she has no ideas

how to erase it from her head

she never knew it got deep impact

to her attitude, her behavior and her character

What's Going On

What's going on?

Something has happened

And she tried to find an answer

What's going on?

Why always something like this happens in her life?

She tried hard searching for an answer

What's going to happen?

She confused

She got no answer

The Dead End

From here she can see an edge, very narrow

She is thinking...

Will she goes back from the start and starting all over again?

or

will she jumps to the edge and falling apart?

and

she is still thinking...

Pain In Her Heart

Pain in her heart she felt this afternoon

It likes a knife stabbed her heart 

and cut it into pieces

It was not her willing to heard bad words

But she realized she was all wrong

But she could not turn the time back 

to her honest life

Flashed of memories dance in her mind

Asking her to remember every pains 

from the past

Makes her crawled on the floor

Crying, screaming as if wanted the pain 

to leave her mind.

she murmuring to the air, 

"....If good attention that you asked,

I will give it to you 

for sure!...."

 

who is she?

As a woman she still on her big doubts

still searching for the right path

and wondering where this life will lead her

But one thing she knows about

she must keep go on

for the sake of her pride and heart

Although she also known that her long journey will end

she wants to keep fight and always braves with patient

until the day she has called

Who is she?